Friday, January 24, 2014
For a guy that said he was going to write every day I haven't done a very good job. We all know that it's not because nothing has happened lately. There have been stories everywhere. Is it writer's block? Well I admit to sitting here looking blankly at the screen. Sometimes that even happens after I spend time researching and have pages of notes. But that's not it. I wish it was. Most of the time when that happens it's not because I can't write, it's because I don't want to.
Admittedly, real life does sometimes get in the way of trying to keep up with things around here. But I've had plenty of time lately to write. Stuff pops up for everyone now and then, but it hasn't stopped me from having time in front of the laptop. So I've had to really look at myself and ask, why am I not writing? I think I figured it out.
Fear. It just all comes down to simple human fear. Mine is that people will stop coming here and reading things that I write. It's because of that fear that I totally lost sight of what I'm doing here in the first place. I've sanitized myself a little bit as to not be offensive. I have held back thoughts and ideas because I worried they might piss someone off. The thing that bothers me is that I didn't realize I was doing it.
I'm not the type of writer, or person for that matter, who will be controversial for the sake of it. Don't get me wrong, I love a good debate. I'll dig my heels in and stand my ground with the best em. But I'm not here to get clicks, I'm just here to write. You will read what I write if you like it, you'll click away if you don't. Either way I'm good with that.
I don't mean to sound challenging. That's not at all what I'm trying to convey here. I'm actually challenging myself to just be honest and share my views from now on. If I like something, I'm going to say it. If I don't, I'll say that too. I'm just allowing myself to be the unfiltered, honest Eric.
There's a whole lot of you out there that have been coming around since the beginning. I love you so much for that. I really appreciate all you've done to help me get this far with my writing. I started here because the 2012 San Francisco Giants team deeply moved me. I never dreamed I would enjoy it so much. This place, and the Giants, have opened up wonderful worlds for me. That's what I know best.
Now it's time to step out of the comfort zone a little bit and try some new things. If you don't like something I have to say, I'd love to hear it in the comments. If you do like it, well even better, comment away! I'm still gonna be here tapping away at the keys no matter what.
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